Life as we know it

Life as we know it,
It's much different than we show it.
We say,we don't want that,we want this,
But do we really have a choice, will we ever get that bliss.

Living each day like an endless cycle, hour after hour,
Hoping for that one day we say, this is what I was waiting for.
Sucked into this hopeless, endless feeling of doom,
It's just me fighting this battle, me, all alone in this room.

The pain creeps up on me, slowly, viciously, nothing has ever helped,
Shackling me up, my body, my mind, my soul trapped.

Feeling trapped, feeling suffocated, need to get out,
I need a solution, no idea of how, when, what.

I'm expected to be very strong,
Live each day, smile, being sad is wrong.
Fine! I will take up this challenge called life, with a heavy heart though,
It's my life, only I have to fight, so...
I will fight this battle, wait for something to change,
Someday, I will get my sunshine, enough of this rain.

Struggle of life

Life as we know it,

It's much different than we show it.

We say,we don't want that ,we want this,

But do we really have a choice, will we ever get that bliss.

Living each day like an endless cycle, hour after hour,

Hoping that, one day we will say, this is what I was waiting for.

Sucked into this hopeless, endless feeling of doom,

It's just me fighting this battle, me, all alone in this room.

The pain creeps up on me, slowly, viciously, nothing has ever helped,

Shackling me up, my body, my mind, my soul trapped.

Feeling helpless, feeling suffocated, need to get out,

I need a solution, no idea of how, when, what.

I'm expected to be very strong,

Live each day, smile, being sad is wrong.

Fine! I will take up this challenge called life, with a heavy heart though,

It's my life, only I have to fight, so...

I will fight this battle, wait for something to change,

Someday, I will get my sunshine, enough of this rain.

Phir milenge doston

2 saal aise lagte hain jaise bus 2 pal saath the jiye..

Abhi to mile the…aur aaj sabh apni-apni rah chal diye..

Chale the, na jaane  aankhon me kitne khwaab sajaaye..

Har mod pe, naye-naye dost the banaaye..

Kaafila yun hi badta chala gaya…

Main haste-haste bus chalta chala gaya

Tum saath the doston, to gum me bhi khushi manaani seekh li thi..

Tum saath the doston, to maine bhi bus, saath nibhaane ke liye thodi daaru pee li thi..

Padaai se dur dur ka naata rishta todke jiye..

 hum to bus  dil se dil jod ke jiye..

subah-subah uthe, to bhi ,class ke baahar se hi waapas aa gaye

Din me dhaabe pe baithe mile….shaam tak poore sheher per chhaa gaye

Kuchh aise hi yaaron ke saath ghoomte-firte, har din bitaaya karte the…

Mahine me ek bar, teacher ko sirf shakal bhar dikhaana ke liye class me ghuss jaaya karte the

Kabhi mausam ne karvat li to mausam achha hai ye keh ke hiking pe nikal liye…

To kabhi holi-diwali ke naam par hafton tak mass bunk the kiye..

Yahaan Behen ko bhai bola, to har waqt hasne waala kanoon bhi yahin par tha mila

Baat-baat par peetne ki baat karne waali chhutki bhi yahin thi…baton se gangwar karne waala bhi yahin par hi mila

Bade buzurg daddu hamesha saath the,

Aur to aur,  yahaan par  pyaar me pade tota-maina ke haaton me haath the..

Har ladki ko chhedne waale dost ka saath bhi mujhe khoob tha mila..

Jatiwad failaane waale thakur ka yahaan par hi tha quila

Idhar ek aisa bhi CR tha jiski har baat pe kuchh double meaning hota tha

To udhar marty apni priye sakhi ko chida-chida ke khush hota tha

Kayi rang dekhe iss safar me, kayi yaadein sanjoyi

Kabhi khushi se daaman bhar gaya, kabhi aankhen non-stop royi

Teachers ko koste-koste, placement cell ko khojte-khojte, pata hi nhi chala time kab guzar gaya

Abhi to aaye the…aur ab jaane ka waqt bhi ho gaya..

Sach bolu, to ab lagta hai kaash kuchh aur din jee paate iss masti bhari zindagi ke..

Ab achanak dil ,daudta hue waqt ko rokne ke dhoondta hai tareeke

Par chalna to hai hi doston…aage badne se hi to maanzil tak pahunchenge

Bus wada karke jaana, ki e-dost, jald hi milenge..

Milte hi gale laga loge , fir ek baar saath-saath chalenge..

Bus wada karke jaana ki e dost, jald hi milenge..

Thinking about you..

When the stars come out twinkling, I’ll be thinking of you

When the sun sweeps the sky clean, yes I’ll be thinking of you

When the wind caresses my skin, you will be the one on my mind

When the rain drop touches my face, yes you will be the one on my mind

You came in my life and showed me a new me...

You made me see the things that I could never see

You are constantly present in my every thought

Your eyes were a trap for me, honey I am caught

I wake up lonely each day, unwilling to break my dream

Unwilling to stop myself from thinking about the days that have been

Trying to hold on to the moments I’ve spent in your arms

Trying to relive those moments when I was spellbound by your charms

You are so far away from me that I just can’t reach you

But why is it that still you are present in everything I do…

My each day surrounds you and so does every night

When I think of you everything just seems so right

So tell me baby, just tell me this time

Do you think about me, am I the only thought on your mind

Won’t you come and hold me again, won’t you stay….

Cause I don’t wanna lose you now, I always wanna feel this way

Tales of a broken heart..

Unable to stay, unwilling to leave...

Too difficult to face, too much to grieve

Was misunderstood, was taken for granted

Still feel the pain, long after we parted

Made the wrong choices, selected the wrong cards

The heart got broken, left behind piercing shards

Cared too much, expected even more

Dreams got washed by sea of tears, didn’t know this was in store

Thought you were different, thought you understood

Will do the things that a pure heart should

But were you true, were you just mine?

Was I the only thing on your mind all this time?

Was I right in trusting you with so much?

Or am I to be blamed for a situation so bad as such?

It was just another story, another guy and girl

But unlike other stories, it was too complicated to even try and unfurl

When we ended it, we thought it was for good

It is something that must be done, something we should

Thought it was a new beginning, a new chance

Will be OK, will get out of the trance

But never knew your presence around will make it more difficult

Your happy face would be the thing that would hurt

Thought you would miss me, thought I was irreplaceable

But who knew you can do this, you were capable

But they say, life goes on, it never ends

So I will be right here, watching its trends

Trying to be happy, smile to everyone I meet

Face the cold, happily face the heat.

is it you or is it me.. :)

Meet this ever changing girl,

Sometimes with a sparkling smile, sometimes dull.

She is emotional like hell but certainly not an emotional fool,

“Do what your heart says”:  is her life’s rule.

She has her own set of ups and downs,

She has her life balanced with smiles and frowns.

She doesn’t have an ordinary person’s luck, and is genuinely blessed,

But why at times, being happy for her becomes a tricky quest?

It’s because she thinks about things more than it’s necessary,

Her ability to make a simple life complicated is legendary!

Is very selective in making friends and loves them from her heart,

Caring for them immensely is her special art.

She has a very supportive family,

She has some great friends, who she can trust blindly,

She has in her life that one angel, who completes her in every way,

So what else can she ask for, let all be there, let all stay.

But this moody girl has limited control on her emotions,

Can make everyone laugh with her or cry out oceans.

She is her biggest critique and never lets’ herself rest,

She tries to make people around her smile coz of her, that’s her test.

Now who’ll explain to her that this what she desires is almost impossible,

She should make herself happy first, that effort would be more reasonable.

Everything shall fall into place on its own accord,

So stop taking stress, it’s always more than you can afford!!

So that’s all I had to say about this emotional girl,

This is her short story, which I tried to unfurl.

Now let us all guess who’s this girl, who is she

Is it your story, or is it me :)

Happy thoughts come back please

Happy thoughts, come back please, I need you,

I am surrounded by demons of sadness, I can’t reach you.

They torture me; make me think what I should not,

I am bound by their shackles, trying all that I can, but I am caught.

Putting a smile on your face when there’s pain inside,

Is the toughest thing one can ever do,

Ignore all negatives; look at the positive side,

You can hide your tears, change your attitude, but it’s so hard to change your view.

False pretence, fake smile, all fail in no while,

If the happiness is genuine then only you can, else you can’t smile.

Take a deep breath, hold your emotion,

It all just ends up feeling like a ridiculous notion.

You just can’t control your emotions; you can’t decide what you feel,

Your heart is made up of flesh and blood, not made of steel.

So don’t fight anymore, succumb to the devil’s want,

You just can’t run away, wherever you go it’ll continue to haunt.