is it you or is it me.. :)

Meet this ever changing girl,

Sometimes with a sparkling smile, sometimes dull.

She is emotional like hell but certainly not an emotional fool,

“Do what your heart says”:  is her life’s rule.

She has her own set of ups and downs,

She has her life balanced with smiles and frowns.

She doesn’t have an ordinary person’s luck, and is genuinely blessed,

But why at times, being happy for her becomes a tricky quest?

It’s because she thinks about things more than it’s necessary,

Her ability to make a simple life complicated is legendary!

Is very selective in making friends and loves them from her heart,

Caring for them immensely is her special art.

She has a very supportive family,

She has some great friends, who she can trust blindly,

She has in her life that one angel, who completes her in every way,

So what else can she ask for, let all be there, let all stay.

But this moody girl has limited control on her emotions,

Can make everyone laugh with her or cry out oceans.

She is her biggest critique and never lets’ herself rest,

She tries to make people around her smile coz of her, that’s her test.

Now who’ll explain to her that this what she desires is almost impossible,

She should make herself happy first, that effort would be more reasonable.

Everything shall fall into place on its own accord,

So stop taking stress, it’s always more than you can afford!!

So that’s all I had to say about this emotional girl,

This is her short story, which I tried to unfurl.

Now let us all guess who’s this girl, who is she

Is it your story, or is it me :)

Happy thoughts come back please

Happy thoughts, come back please, I need you,

I am surrounded by demons of sadness, I can’t reach you.

They torture me; make me think what I should not,

I am bound by their shackles, trying all that I can, but I am caught.

Putting a smile on your face when there’s pain inside,

Is the toughest thing one can ever do,

Ignore all negatives; look at the positive side,

You can hide your tears, change your attitude, but it’s so hard to change your view.

False pretence, fake smile, all fail in no while,

If the happiness is genuine then only you can, else you can’t smile.

Take a deep breath, hold your emotion,

It all just ends up feeling like a ridiculous notion.

You just can’t control your emotions; you can’t decide what you feel,

Your heart is made up of flesh and blood, not made of steel.

So don’t fight anymore, succumb to the devil’s want,

You just can’t run away, wherever you go it’ll continue to haunt.

I am lost these days

I am lost these days; don’t know what happened to me mate,

I have no idea how I landed in this state.

Each flower has withered, leaving just an imprint in my memory,

Each sand house I made has been washed away by the envious sea.

Each thought of mine is a murky cloud,

Each dream has now been washed out.

My path used to be bright with twinkling stars,

Had my way laid with delicate flowers.

Which star should I reach to now, which flower should I pick

All have left me; there are only thorns that prick.

Why have all my dreams got lost

Why do I have to smile at such a painful cost?

What should I tell you why my heart aches so much,

There’s no shoulder to lay my head on, there’s no hand to touch.

Talks that touched my heart don’t exist anymore,

My days are sad; my nights are peaceful no more.

Now past days seem to be a faded reality

My present is full of sorrow, future is void of clarity.

A new start

New world, new day, I am here with a brand new outlook,

Back to myself, happy inside, not even sad for the days I took.

Least bothered, not worried about anything,

Bouncy and chirpy, my each step having a melodious spring

Have a newly discovered happy shield around me,

My best friends are my thoughts that possessively surround me

If you wanna know me now, then it’s too late,

My emotions are safe inside me, I have shut the gate

Whatever I do, will be just for me,

I have my lock and only I have the key

Don’t explain, now expect no more,

It’s going to be a great life ahead, I am so sure

So come one and come all,

Let’s rock the party, have a ball

It’s a short life, no time to waste it,

It’s a roller-coaster ride, so many flavors, just go and taste it.

Your Beautiful Love

Your love for me is a precious prayer answered by god,

I could not ever find anyone like you, I always tried so hard.

You love me like no one ever does,

Lift me up when I land in a mess.

I want to stay with you forever and for eternity,

As our love for each other exceeds infinity.

Every morning you make me bloom into a happy flower from a tiny little seed,

Your presence in my life forever, is all that I really need.

Your deep eyes speak louder than any word in the world,

They assure me of myself and make me believe in things I never even heard.

You care for me like an angel sent from above,

With your heart so pure and filled with immense love

When I lay my head on your chest and drift into a peaceful slumber,

I know my angel is guarding me with his arms around me like a shielding cover.

You rush to hold my hand when I pretend to fall,

Your heart just can’t ignore me whenever I call.

From where did you get the strength of loving me so dearly and so much?

Your love is like magic which spells from every touch.

I want to stay with you all my life, love you forever,

Promise you’ll always be with me, promise you’ll leave me never…

When your love proves to be your True love

What was I thinking; it doesn’t make any sense,

How could I possibly go around looking for happiness?

While it was there with me all this while,

Hidden in your loving words and beautiful smile

You try so hard to lift my mood and make me jolly,

Act so patient with me, accept my each folly

My pain has hurt you more than it has hurt me,

With me, your days were gloomy too, no longer sunny

Your mood and happiness turn on and off with mine,

My emotions on every day decide, if your day will be sad or will it shine

Strange how both of us are connected like this in spite of miles separating us two

Your pain hurts me; same way as mine hurts you

So how can I ever be sad when I have you?

When your love is the purest, your friendship so true

You’ll always love me- this one fact will never change,

I know, I’ll always find you standing by me in every situation, no matter how very strange

My dear, I promise, I’ll never take your love for granted,

As I won’t be able to survive, if we ever get parted

Your love is my asset which I’ll treasure for life,

Even when I was your friend, am your girlfriend, and will be your wife…

Confusion and Regret:Is that what trusting someone leads to?

This is turning out to be harder than I thought,

It’s the testing of every ounce of patience I’ve got

No matter how much I try to be normal,

It feels to be pitied at, his being so formal.

It hurts me to see the very look on his face now,

I just don’t want to relate to him, don’t wanna know his who, when or how

Past is the phase when I suffered because of his indifference act,

Now it makes me angry, difficult not to react.

One wonders why such a situation has arisen,

She doesn’t speak, he doesn’t listen.

But no one knows the truth but him,

If there’s something buried deep down or just an act of whim.

His words, his attitude are beyond my recognition,

What wrong did I do to him to deserve such a condition?

No true friend would ever do something like this,

Act so rude, distant and insulting; I’m doubtful that I’ll be the one he’ll ever miss.

If he wanted new friends, if he wanted some space,

He could have asked me, said that on my face.

But no, it’s not in his character,

To explain what he’s doing, to think about his behavior.

Well now I’ll let him be whatever he wants, let him do all wrong,

I won’t react, I have to be strong.