is it you or is it me.. :)

Meet this ever changing girl,

Sometimes with a sparkling smile, sometimes dull.

She is emotional like hell but certainly not an emotional fool,

“Do what your heart says”:  is her life’s rule.

She has her own set of ups and downs,

She has her life balanced with smiles and frowns.

She doesn’t have an ordinary person’s luck, and is genuinely blessed,

But why at times, being happy for her becomes a tricky quest?

It’s because she thinks about things more than it’s necessary,

Her ability to make a simple life complicated is legendary!

Is very selective in making friends and loves them from her heart,

Caring for them immensely is her special art.

She has a very supportive family,

She has some great friends, who she can trust blindly,

She has in her life that one angel, who completes her in every way,

So what else can she ask for, let all be there, let all stay.

But this moody girl has limited control on her emotions,

Can make everyone laugh with her or cry out oceans.

She is her biggest critique and never lets’ herself rest,

She tries to make people around her smile coz of her, that’s her test.

Now who’ll explain to her that this what she desires is almost impossible,

She should make herself happy first, that effort would be more reasonable.

Everything shall fall into place on its own accord,

So stop taking stress, it’s always more than you can afford!!

So that’s all I had to say about this emotional girl,

This is her short story, which I tried to unfurl.

Now let us all guess who’s this girl, who is she

Is it your story, or is it me :)

Happy thoughts come back please

Happy thoughts, come back please, I need you,

I am surrounded by demons of sadness, I can’t reach you.

They torture me; make me think what I should not,

I am bound by their shackles, trying all that I can, but I am caught.

Putting a smile on your face when there’s pain inside,

Is the toughest thing one can ever do,

Ignore all negatives; look at the positive side,

You can hide your tears, change your attitude, but it’s so hard to change your view.

False pretence, fake smile, all fail in no while,

If the happiness is genuine then only you can, else you can’t smile.

Take a deep breath, hold your emotion,

It all just ends up feeling like a ridiculous notion.

You just can’t control your emotions; you can’t decide what you feel,

Your heart is made up of flesh and blood, not made of steel.

So don’t fight anymore, succumb to the devil’s want,

You just can’t run away, wherever you go it’ll continue to haunt.

I am lost these days

I am lost these days; don’t know what happened to me mate,

I have no idea how I landed in this state.

Each flower has withered, leaving just an imprint in my memory,

Each sand house I made has been washed away by the envious sea.

Each thought of mine is a murky cloud,

Each dream has now been washed out.

My path used to be bright with twinkling stars,

Had my way laid with delicate flowers.

Which star should I reach to now, which flower should I pick

All have left me; there are only thorns that prick.

Why have all my dreams got lost

Why do I have to smile at such a painful cost?

What should I tell you why my heart aches so much,

There’s no shoulder to lay my head on, there’s no hand to touch.

Talks that touched my heart don’t exist anymore,

My days are sad; my nights are peaceful no more.

Now past days seem to be a faded reality

My present is full of sorrow, future is void of clarity.

A new start

New world, new day, I am here with a brand new outlook,

Back to myself, happy inside, not even sad for the days I took.

Least bothered, not worried about anything,

Bouncy and chirpy, my each step having a melodious spring

Have a newly discovered happy shield around me,

My best friends are my thoughts that possessively surround me

If you wanna know me now, then it’s too late,

My emotions are safe inside me, I have shut the gate

Whatever I do, will be just for me,

I have my lock and only I have the key

Don’t explain, now expect no more,

It’s going to be a great life ahead, I am so sure

So come one and come all,

Let’s rock the party, have a ball

It’s a short life, no time to waste it,

It’s a roller-coaster ride, so many flavors, just go and taste it.

Your Beautiful Love

Your love for me is a precious prayer answered by god,

I could not ever find anyone like you, I always tried so hard.

You love me like no one ever does,

Lift me up when I land in a mess.

I want to stay with you forever and for eternity,

As our love for each other exceeds infinity.

Every morning you make me bloom into a happy flower from a tiny little seed,

Your presence in my life forever, is all that I really need.

Your deep eyes speak louder than any word in the world,

They assure me of myself and make me believe in things I never even heard.

You care for me like an angel sent from above,

With your heart so pure and filled with immense love

When I lay my head on your chest and drift into a peaceful slumber,

I know my angel is guarding me with his arms around me like a shielding cover.

You rush to hold my hand when I pretend to fall,

Your heart just can’t ignore me whenever I call.

From where did you get the strength of loving me so dearly and so much?

Your love is like magic which spells from every touch.

I want to stay with you all my life, love you forever,

Promise you’ll always be with me, promise you’ll leave me never…

When your love proves to be your True love

What was I thinking; it doesn’t make any sense,

How could I possibly go around looking for happiness?

While it was there with me all this while,

Hidden in your loving words and beautiful smile

You try so hard to lift my mood and make me jolly,

Act so patient with me, accept my each folly

My pain has hurt you more than it has hurt me,

With me, your days were gloomy too, no longer sunny

Your mood and happiness turn on and off with mine,

My emotions on every day decide, if your day will be sad or will it shine

Strange how both of us are connected like this in spite of miles separating us two

Your pain hurts me; same way as mine hurts you

So how can I ever be sad when I have you?

When your love is the purest, your friendship so true

You’ll always love me- this one fact will never change,

I know, I’ll always find you standing by me in every situation, no matter how very strange

My dear, I promise, I’ll never take your love for granted,

As I won’t be able to survive, if we ever get parted

Your love is my asset which I’ll treasure for life,

Even when I was your friend, am your girlfriend, and will be your wife…

Confusion and Regret:Is that what trusting someone leads to?

This is turning out to be harder than I thought,

It’s the testing of every ounce of patience I’ve got

No matter how much I try to be normal,

It feels to be pitied at, his being so formal.

It hurts me to see the very look on his face now,

I just don’t want to relate to him, don’t wanna know his who, when or how

Past is the phase when I suffered because of his indifference act,

Now it makes me angry, difficult not to react.

One wonders why such a situation has arisen,

She doesn’t speak, he doesn’t listen.

But no one knows the truth but him,

If there’s something buried deep down or just an act of whim.

His words, his attitude are beyond my recognition,

What wrong did I do to him to deserve such a condition?

No true friend would ever do something like this,

Act so rude, distant and insulting; I’m doubtful that I’ll be the one he’ll ever miss.

If he wanted new friends, if he wanted some space,

He could have asked me, said that on my face.

But no, it’s not in his character,

To explain what he’s doing, to think about his behavior.

Well now I’ll let him be whatever he wants, let him do all wrong,

I won’t react, I have to be strong.

That was: Special Bond of friendship

Our friendship was so sweet and pure,

Those beautiful moments we’ve spent together were so defined, so sure.

I used to be your mate, your responsibility,

There was pure care, no pretence or pity.

Whenever I used to look in those deep eyes of yours,

I could see them filled with concern for me, away from all lures.

I felt free to cry my heart out in your presence and act like a stupid kid,

As you always wiped my tears like a loving parent did.

You made me laugh so many times that I could not help but smile,

Oblivious to the hidden concern that was in your mind all this while

You used to worry what will happen if you say this or you said that,

 Will I stop smiling and cry for the whole next night.

I never saw what was coming and continued with my trivial talks,

Laughing with you at one moment and in the very next, talking to you as if throwing rocks

I did all this because I was confident that you’ll never go,

 Little did I knew, you were getting hurt, but never let it show.

I was a short tempered kid, always throwing tantrums,

But thought you accepted me and can never shunt me and run

Just when I realized that things are not going all well and started to change for my mate,

It was too late; I realized your care for me had turned into hate

Today I sit sad in my room and remember all those happy moments I had spent with you my friend,

Wanting things to get back how they used to be which are now beyond mend.

Losing a friend

She wakes up each day promising to herself, that today she’ll embrace happiness,

Today will be a different day with no sadness.

But happiness just eludes her, as she ends each day with a new sorrow,

With tears accompanying her, leaving her lonely and hollow.

She walks down the never ending road all lonely,

Looking for people who can bring back her smile,

But never finding that one person she hopes for all this while.

It hurts her to smile every day,

To pretend that all is fine, she wanted things to be this way,

But inside she asks god to take her away to her hiding place,

Where she can cry her heart out, try and forget those happy days.

He was not her love but a true friend,

Who made her smile, their bond was pure, nothing to pretend.

But one day he just left her alone and vanished from her life,

Leaving her wounds to mend with time.

It’s not that it’s the end of the world for her,

Neither is she deprived of people to care for her.

But the excruciating pain is because of the sad realization,

She’s lost her dearest friend to an unknown situation.

She waits for him to call; she waits for him to say hi,

To see the same longing in his eyes as he can see in her eye.

She falls apart every night and tries to console her before every dawn,

But her pretence of happiness is of no use, her mate is gone.

Things have gone beyond repair,

Tomorrow for her is filled with despair.

She’s lost her concentration and her smile,

And he has new friends now oblivious to her condition all this while.

But girl, you have to be strong,

It’s not the end of the world; you have to find your life’s song.

Tune out the sad things, wipe out the memory,

Try and be happy , write a new story.

Classroom Boredom

It’s an early Monday morning as usual,

Students are already half asleep and acting so casual

The teacher continues with her soporific lecture dose,

It feels like ages since the last time I slept, my eyes threaten to shut close.

I look around the class to find some distraction,

But there’s nothing interesting enough to hold my attraction

There’s one chap who’s pretending to take notes with full attention,

Though his mind and hands seem to lack any connection.

Just then my neighbor tried to stifle a huge yawn,

She seems dazed, as if dreaming of a faraway lawn.

It’s funny to see such sleepy faces faking interest,

While they all seem to be on the verge of making a nap request.

The lights are shut in order to focus on the projector screen,

As if challenging us to roll into a slumber, just when we can’t, it’s so mean!!

I try and look outside the front doors to find something new,

Only to find disgruntled students moving in a slow queue

Why do they have to torture the students like this,

The authorities will be blessed if they could fulfill our only wish,

Wish is to have each weekday off and have classes only on weekend,

If only they hear our crying souls and start this trend

But I guess this wishful thinking is of no use,

So here I go, I have to sit here each day, there’s nothing to choose. 

Rainy Day

It’s been raining all night and getting colder by each passing day,

I just don’t feel like coming out of the bed, no matter what my mum say

All day I want to stay cuddled in my warm and snuggly blanket,

From distance I might look like a fat, lazy snoring rabbit!

It’s weekend time and I have loads of piled up work to do,

Finish my assignments, do some shopping and even polish my shoe

But today I am feeling lazier than Garfield the cat

I know I will land into trouble if I don’t finish my chores, but how can a lazy person understand that?

I want soups and pakoras to be served hot to me on my bed,

Would love a hot water bottle at this time, and someone to massage my head

Taking a bath today seems to be very tough and impossible job,

I’ll enter the bathroom only, if I am allowed to sit for hours in a hot water tub

Today I will get out of my bed only for any emergency call,

Or to make paper boats to see them float and wobble in the heavy rainfall

I shall sit all day propped on my bed, looking out of the window

Watch the dancing raindrops and happy trees put up a fascinating show

I don’t want the pitter-patter of the rain to stop right now; I don’t want it to go away,

It’s a declared holiday, it’s my rainy day!

If you feel like rain dear, you can stop in the evening,

As it’s time for my friends to come out and for us to enjoy and go around the town screaming!